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Alpha
04:14
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I await in the vapor, the ambience
Find me there
And the blood will descend to shattered glass
You can find me there
Holy resonance
Carried us so far
Cosmic machinery
Solace in the scars
Never did understand anyway
I exist in the pages you recollect
Find me there
When your children ascend from pure black nothingness
Find me there
In this sound I found deliverance
Unfolding in the pages
A storm amongst the stillness
And in this sound I found the words of a god
Colliding in the ether
Waiting to be found there
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2. |
Lume
04:24
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Fade into light and color
Say all your lines perfectly
Gaze into black, searching
Hiding away, smiling
Sifting through the silence
Turn you into sweetest sound
Searching all the fault lines, never lost and never found
Flat on your back, waiting
Quiet and loud, violent swings
Promise to meet you there
Sifting through the silence
Turn you into sweetest sound
Searching all the fault lines, never lost and never found
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3. |
Paper Spirit
04:35
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I heard a lie a from paper spirit
I got a feeling they never sleep
Sweet words that they don’t believe in
Speak strength but the spirit’s so weak
My world entire
Shield my eyes, take me home
It never did any good for the soul
Like killing giants
Shakes and spins, take me home
It never did any good for the soul
Hide away in a paper castle
Keep quiet and bury it deep
For awhile, felt a fire burning
Long since, now the will is so weak
My world entire
Shield me eyes, take me home
It never did any good for the soul
Like killing giants
Shakes and spins, take me home
It never did any good for the soul
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4. |
Fever Dream
05:40
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An open hand appears to push me under
A silent peace and a midnight reverie
You’re all I have and I’ll never love another
I embrace it
A selfish fever dream
Like dawning
An empty hand appears to pull me further
A sleeping life in a tossed out diary
You are shaking me awake and torn asunder
You have left me in the wake of all I am
How can I forget if it’s all I can think about?
How can I pretend if it’s all I can feel?
To the bitter end I am following lifetimes
To the bitter end I am bound to the real
A tired mind erupting from the sunlight
A tired soul from years of memory
You were singing in your sleep, a sound like thunder
You were speaking in your dreams and fell silent
How can I forget if it’s all I can think about?
How can I pretend if it’s all I can feel?
To the bitter end I am following lifetimes
To the bitter end I am bound to the real
An open hand appears to push me under
A silent peace and a midnight reverie
You’re all I have and I’ll never love another
I embrace it, a selfish fever dream
Like dawning
How can I forget if it’s all I can think about?
How can I pretend if it’s all I can feel?
To the bitter end I am following lifetimes
To the bitter end I am bound to the real
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5. |
Beast
04:59
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It’s a beast
It is starving, it is weak
From a life long forgotten and overwhelming
A life of fear of the things it cannot conceal
All those things it imagined
That were never real
Fear has a price
And a name
And a heart that cannot be tamed
It won’t forgive
It can’t be erased
Pride is a gift they cannot destroy
Sown from blood and from love that they can’t deny
Fear has a price
And a name
And a heart that cannot be tamed
It won’t forgive, it can’t be erased
And it is hungry now
And further up on the chain
If you would listen, you could be righteous
But you won’t, so
It’s a vision you couldn’t see
It’s a fever turning to fire now
It’s a fire now
All the things that you couldn’t say
All the embers turning to fire now
It’s a fire now
Fear has a price
And a name
And a heart that cannot be tamed
It won’t forgive and can’t be replaced
And it is hungry now
And further up on the chain
If you would listen, you could be righteous
But you won’t, so
It’s a vision you couldn’t see
It’s a fever turning to fire now
It’s a fire now
All the things that you couldn’t say
All the embers turning to fire now
It’s a fire now
It’s a choir you couldn’t hear
It’s a friction turning to fire now
It’s a fire now
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6. |
This is Not the Devil
03:39
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All the fear that you taught them
All the peace that you tossed away
This is not the devil that you seek
Helpless refugee
Lying in the sand
But you got what you wanted
Every hope that you squander
Every fool that you bring to bear
Pushing ever further til the end
Helpless refugees buried in the sand
But you got what you needed
So fuck the rest
They never had a chance
Through the frail
And the suffering
Cages and the kids
You are far beyond the edge of being everything you fear and still
Selfish cowardice
Lying in your bed
And you got what you needed
To fall asleep
And never have to dream
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7. |
Shapeshifter
04:33
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I think of little else
Falling through a hole in the earth
A never-ending procession
Carried over terrible waves
With shaking hands and hushed tones
And promises not kept
All I am, a recollection of every moment
All I am, a composition of every breath
I thought of nothing to say
An evolution hidden by fear
When vanity’s a religion
We fall away and reappear
With shaking hands and hushed tones
And promises not kept
All I am, a recollection of every moment
All I am, a composition of every breath
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8. |
Meridian
03:25
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You are whispering under solemn gaze
Feeling her soul leaving the room
You are hopeful in a different way
Watching the life leaving the room
You feel it
And you seem to me so far away and beyond my reach
Vision shakes, you are deafening waves, you’re a violent need
You seem to me to ebb and flow, to push and to pull
Vision shakes, you’re a darkening dream, you’re an infinite road
Falter in a washed out haze
Watching the light play on the wall
A victor in a different game
Hearing the laughter from down the hall
And you seem to me so far away and beyond my reach
Vision shakes, you are deafening waves, you’re a violent need
You seem to me to ebb and flow, to push and to pull
Vision shakes, you’re a darkening dream, you’re an infinite road
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9. |
Red Smoke
04:33
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In the vanishing air of a dream
Feels like an echo
Felt like a sin
They are closing in, picking up speed
Felt in the temple and seen in the skin
In the moment, too fast to see
Anticipating it, building within
We are broken and torn at the seams
Running on vapors, air getting thin
I will awake if you wish
I will tear it all out like oblivion found us
I will awake if you want
I will follow you there like a beacon resounding
In a story, read as a child,
Try to remember it, what it felt like
More and more I falter and reel,
Fade like a photograph
Wake from the nothingness
I will awake if you wish
I will tear it all out like oblivion found us
I will awake if you want
I will follow you there like a beacon
I will awake if you wish
I will tear it all out like oblivion found us
I will awake if you want
I will follow you there like a beacon resoundingI will awake if you wish
I will tear it all out like oblivion found us
I will awake if you want
I will follow you there like a beacon resounding
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10. |
Sea Wall
03:53
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We are not okay
We are all ghosts in a wire
We are out of time
We are asleep on the pyre
Feels like this isn’t the way
We are not okay
Lying in binary graves
We are all away
Neither asleep nor awake
Feels like this isn’t the way
Higher
They are ever surrounding us
Even higher still
Carried away
Every fear is a wave
Every touch is a blade
Violently awake, and laugh in the face of the dream
Hardly daring to believe that we are a cell in the sea
Higher
They are ever surrounding us
Even higher still
Carried away
Every fear is a wave
Every touch is a blade
Every thought is a cage
Every feeling a weight
How long now?
Been here for days
How long til we come up for air?
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11. |
Violet Sun
03:40
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Bury the earth
And tell stories of heroes
They are heaven-sent
They are sacred
This dream is a lie, a perfect wish
You pin down the world
Though it’s killing your neighbor
Words you never meant
Words of poison
You drink and you dine til there’s nothing left
And when the memory fades
Keep watching them, watching them, lying in wait
And when the siren sounds I won’t let you down
Keep calling my name
And when the violence fades
Keep watching them, watching them, lying in wait
And when the siren sounds
Don’t turn away, don’t turn away
Alight
If there is still hope in this place
We’ll find it out there somewhere
All of the pyres
Use them to guide you along
Reaching out into the dark
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12. |
Obscura
05:23
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I’ve been scattering all of the ashes of past lives
I’ve been sifting through all of the stories and bloodlines
And if the time knows anything it never tells, it never tells
And if it gives more than it takes we hold to it, we hold to it
And if you leave a parting word I’ll cling to it, remember it
If I can keep it here with me I always will, I always will
I’ve been counting down all of the seconds left in a lifetime
I’ve been scouring all of the lessons learned through the timelines
I’ve been searching and making my way home, losing daylight
I’ve been finding all the things I thought I lost here at my side
I have tried and failed, I left with shattered ears and eyes wide
And if the time knows anything it never tells, it never tells
And if it gives more than it takes we hold to it, we hold to it
And if you leave a parting word I’ll cling to it, remember it
If I can keep it here with me I always will, I always will
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